A Negative Reminiscence
This is mostly a personal blog post, so please bear with me.
Last night, I began doing something again that I thought I would never do: answer calls and do call center work.
Now, I have nothing against the call center industry itself. It’s just that, much like playing Darkfall, it makes me feel extremely anxious to engage in the activity. This is mostly due to my own neuroses, and how my personality doesn’t seem to relax when faced with the possibility of an irate caller.
What I was told was that if there are no calls coming in at certain times, we can perform writing work. However, it feels like a bait and switch to realize that despite a lull in the calls, people will still eventually call, and you’ll still be scrambling to finish all the after-call work in time.
Unfortunately, it feels like my heart will burst every time I take a call. I hate that feeling immensely. I want it to go away, but I don’t think anyone in my family understands the emotional and physical response that this actual job gives me.
Still, it was my choice to enter the job and try and tough it out. But I guess I’m not as strong inside as I think I am.