I’m Afraid to Play Darkfall
I’m afraid to play Darkfall.
Basically, after that run from Mahirim lands to the guild city, it was fun and nerve-wracking and scary. It was a good experience, but it was also a bad experience.
I realized that, certain games I play make me literally afraid to play them. I dawdle on the computer trying to find things to read or stuff to do, but essentially, I know deep in my heart of hearts that I’m just trying to pass the time away from playing a game.
Darkfall made me realize that to a great degree, as even though I missed the game, I hated being in it as much as I liked being in it. As much as I want to have new experiences, I generally dislike experiencing new things and adjusting to the changes.
While I adjusted to the changes that Darkfall brought on a gameplay level, it was the psychological aspect of playing Darkfall that really got to me, and with that in mind, I realized I didn’t want to play a game that was messing with my mind so much.
While I still have around 70 days or so of time remaining, I’ll probably come back a couple of times just to roam the world, but I think I’ve had my fill of Darkfall.
After this post, I will log in to the account management system, take myself off recurring subscriptions, and remove my credit card information from their system. Then I will delete Darkfall from my hard drive.
At the same time, I will cry a little, because it was a good world, and an interesting game.
I just did not have the mental fortitude to play it.